I would really like to know, what is the first thing that came to the persons mind reading the headline of this entry. I would probably think of brushing my teeth, reading the bible and then about anything else lasting longer then three minutes. Telling the truth the name and the whole story came to me during my travel for my exam. Because I moved to the different apartment the way to the train station would take me about a hour and after some consideration I prefer to skip this morning walk and just try the public transportation they have here in the town. I was happy I could just buy the cheapist ticket - thank to the "near" location of the train station. Nevertheless the very morning I had so much time I had to make up work to do before leaving for the bus. That is not so hard now when I am not unpacked and still have planty to do but after unpacking the last bag of things I had exactly three minutes for the earlier bus to catch. I did not make it and found out three minutes for puting my shoes on and my jacket is simply not enough. So I had to wait for ten minutes to go by the originally planned bus. While I was waiting there I was thinking about the text I read from my bible that morning. The verse what was popping up from the scripture for the third day had this meaning:
"The eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him"
I do not know why I connected this verse with my experience of missing the bus. It was like somehow it reprehended me about my attitude towards God. How many times He is just one part of the day, what is quite sad but also wierd when I realize that from the time I was here as volunteer, what seem like ages ago, I am waking up every moment with the knowledge God is caring and will give me everything I need so I do not have to be affraid. What I am not, but may be I am a little unthankful and just taking it without really appreciating it. What is so bad and sad at the same time. Because the moment I am saving for God every morning that is not enough... it seems I have a new task ahead of me, may be it is new years wish - definetely not a resolution because those are normally not fulfilled - I desire that my heart would be fully committed to God and changed so it would be something normal to be with Him always, not just rely on Him, what is great start but I think it should not be the end of things...
