New beginings

Beginings. What a wonderful time. Possibility to start over with a clear sheet. Chance to set a goal, plan the way and then all it is left is to step forth... if only it would be so easy and happy.

For some of you it may be a surprise, for others it is an old story, but I just love this period, when something new begins. To specify it: September, January and then also the months when the new semesters begin. Those are the moments for me when I try to stop for a while, evaluate past events and re-think my priorities and plans for next couple months. It is not alway a happy stop, because, it seems, I am not perfect, so I had found out so many times I was not able to accoplish what I wanted, but sometimes I moved somewhere else, somewhere I would never be able to plan or even think of.

You could object, making too detailed plans is not always the best, because where is the space for God and also some flexibility would not hurt, right? Well both of this objections have some point and truthfully I have experienced the meaningless attempts to plan without God´s leadership. But also that it is crutial to be able to adapt during the unexpected circumstances. Nevertheless I am quite sure, without planning. evaluation, improvements and celebrations from the outcome we would not be able to accoplish as much as with it. And what more if we recognize the power, God has given to us, then it is something else!

The last month was in this spirit for me. I have realized, how greatful I am for Gods care. He is not giving me just everything I need but also things I do not recognize I could possibly ever need. I also tried to figure out what is my actual state of beeing, what I need to change, how to set things right and organize things for the future. You know, for me it is quite easy to create some system, chart, list, but I also know how frustrating it is when after some time you find out you are not able to follow your own rules. So I should probably learn from that and stop creating them but on the other hand I think it is always good to be able to go back and see what I wanted to accomplish and more importantly why and figure out some strategy, doable in the ideal world, how to get to the goal.  I am really curious, how will it end this time, but I believe, if my goals will copy the right set priorities, God will show me the direction to know the way and then during the next evaluation I will have reasons to celebrate and I will not have to languish for my weaknesses and inability to reach the goal. We will see...