Sometimes life is not so easy-going as it might seem to the people around us. I have witness this so many times in the past. One thing interesting about moving is, everytime you need to find your place in the society once again. I do not know how about you, but I have this need to fit in, to be the part that everyone will miss if I will leave, to pass on something memorable. But why? What is my motive?
I think it is all connected with the fact, that we were created as social creatures. We need people around us. Even those who are one hundred percent convinced they do not eventually find out that is not true. When we are alone we at least create our imaginary friends. Sure I have God with me always but I also need community and the place I know I belong to. But is this even possible to find on this earth?
At the begining of this year I have decided to stay in Žilina. I had and still have no idea for how long God called me to stay here. But the good thing is He did called me and gave me awesome opportunity to minister His daughters around me. It is not always just fun. I am experiencing times when we share sadness but also joyful moments or just emotionless moments of stillness. Though I have had all this, there are periods I am not sure if I belong here fully. When I just want to flee and move to the next place, meet new people, experience new adventures, but hey that is not what I am supposed to do, right. This kind of restless heart does not build the community in the church as we are all called to do. So I am so many times reminded of my new year´s verse I picked for the 2014, that by myself I will never be able to do so much as with people around me:
Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. John 15:4
This is something I am learning this year. To fight the urge to escape from something I am building and instead to enjoy being part of the community God has provided for me.
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